Tuesday, January 2, 2018

If you find my motivation, let me know

I seemed to have lost my motivation somewhere in the waning weeks of 2017. For writing, for reading, for taking the necessary steps in this writing thing I hope to make a career. And I just can't seem to find it again.

I finished my fifth novel and sent it out to my beta readers. An accomplishment I should surely be proud of. And I am. But it's a little harder when you feel like you've been thrust back to the beginning again. I was prepared for ups and downs of the publishing world. But coming back around full circle again was tougher than I imagined.

I'm not complaining. This industry is tough, and it should be. As a reader I really appreciate that. But as a writer, it makes me question. Is it me, or them? Have I just not found the right person to get my work out there, or am I just not talented enough? Knowing when it's smarter to give up or keep going, is a balance I'm still struggling with.

But for now, I made the decision to try one more time. To edit, query, drink copious amounts of Diet Coke waiting for the rejections to roll in. I gave myself a few weeks off to breathe. Not think about writing, or reading, or anything to do with the industry. It was good, and more needed than I realized.

But with the start of the new year, I'm ready to dive back in {or at least fake it till I make it}. While waiting to hear from my readers, I'm going to tackle my query and synopsis. I'm gonna fall in love with books again. I'm gonna remember why I started this whole process to begin with. And how days sent writing are so much better than those I don't. That I've written 5 novels. And even if no one other than my family ever reads them, that's good enough for me. And most importantly, I'll never really know unless I try. Again and again and again.

So here's to 2018. May it bring all our publishing dreams come true. Or at least remind us all why we started this in the first place!

Happy writing, and if you're ever stuck and questioning it all, remember I'm right there with you, slogging through the muck with you.

And feel free to share your most recent favorite books! I'm always looking for something good.