Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Reading my Heart

After weeks and weeks of editing, and spending more money on printer ink than I'd care to admit, I've finally gotten to a place where I'm ready to share my book with people for some feedback. 


I won't lie, it's scary.  Really, really scary.  This story has been floating around in my head for years.  And now I'm going to let people read it, to let them into my head, into my heart.  It's intimidating and makes me want to run away and hide under my blankets.  I simultaneously want pages and pages of feedback, and nothing but praise.  It's going to be a learning experience for sure, sharing my heart with the rest of the world.

For now I'm only sharing it with my family, mainly so they can see what I've been working on these past few months.  Thanks to some advice from a friend, I'm taking a little time to really research and think about who else I'll share this with it its beginning stages.

My book is far from perfect, but I think feedback at this stage is important.  I also think I needed to step away from it for a few weeks.  I've been either writing or editing it every day for months now.  A little space will help me bring a fresh perspective when I get back to it.

It's strange, having all this extra time.  Well, that's laughable as I still have a husband, two little girls, and plenty of housework to fill my time.  But at least I'm going to bed before 3:00 am now.  I feel anxious, being away from my story, the characters I've come to think of as friends.  It's a struggle for me to stay away from the computer and not open up my book.  I don't want to fall into the trap of reading just a few lines, making just a few edits.  This break is important, but it doesn't make it any less hard.

So for now I'll just sit here and wait.  Wait for the first bits of feedback, wondering if I really do have what it takes to be a novelist.  Wait to see if other people fall in love with my characters the way I did.  Wait to see if my story conveys the messages and intentions I hope it does.  And I'll spend this time waiting trying to figure out exactly what genre my book belongs in...cause trust me, that's harder than it looks.

When do you share your writing with other people?  Who are the best people to edit it?  Let me know!